Do anyone here know the weight of their words? Anyone?
Please hear this. Bear with me. When you've read it and heard what my hollow chest has been imploring you to hear will you realize how hard it was for me to write this? Will you come and glue all the broken things where my heart should have been? Will I have my happy ever after with you? Will you believe me for the things I say? Please, for the nth time I've uttered this, hear me. Hear me out. Please hear this.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Saturday, December 1, 2012
My Promised Huang he
Stop saying forever. I know you’ll leave me. And when that
time comes, I’ll cry a river in commemoration of the love we shared (if we did
share it). Don’t worry, that’s not a hyperbole, I’ve saved enough tears in jars
to forge my promised Huang he.
Friday, November 30, 2012
There is More to Life
There is more to life than finding the one who will love you, stop looking for a love life, for a moment, and start looking for a life.
No Story is Ever Less Significant
In a classroom, when someone is speaking, especially in the first day of
school, about their lives, everyone would be straining their necks, even the
snobs, toward the person who's speaking. This is because no story
is ever so small. Ever so dull. Ever so typical. Everyone deserves to be heard.
Each one’s story is worth the strain in the neck.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Those that Secretly Taste Us
Be afraid when butterflies rest by you, they are secretly tasting you by their foot. And then, when they're satisfied, they'll fly away from you again, leaving you alone.
Leaving everything behind is Not Smart, Try Bringing Some
When you leave, at least steal a glimpse back. Because
you might see something worth going back for. Try to bring some of what’s
behind or suffer for having regret instead. Not everything we leave behind must
be or should be left behind.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Fears and the Will to Find Courage
The moments you're frightened of today are the moments you’ll call unforgettable
experiences and happy times in the future. Upon retrospection, tears might well
but it is because you remembered how it felt believing in God in those scary
moments. It is because you remembered the feeling of courage coursing through
the avenues of your blood.
In the end of the day, a fear is overcome, a skill
is honed, faith is exercised, and an experience is gained. Above all this, a
life is lived. Carpe diem, seize the day and have no fear. You Only Live Once.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Short Story: Genesis and a few Celestial Beings
If
you think this is the seven day creation tale of the book you all have been
blindly worshipping since its publication. It’s not. And I’m hoping you haven’t
believed in that piece of lie the “book” has told you and intoxicated you with.
Nevertheless, I believe that intoxication leads to vomiting. Soon enough,
you’ll be vomiting shit. Grope for the truth. You’ll realize.
I’m not a son of the earth, but
believe me or not, I have been watching your planet since I spotted it in my Cosmoscope,
our version of telescope only that it’s more powerful. I’m a few billion years
old, maybe 5, and young am I, at least in our planet’s standards. I have
spotted it when I was just a few million years old.
Your planet is beautiful, that is an
understatement. It started from swirling bits of glittering lustrous dust and
compacted into a rocky plain when the Sun came into being. Light was created.
Because light is what humans need. Because it is what plants need. Because it
is what animals need. Light came into being because the Sun felt from its
heartbeats and the Earth’s silent breathing that it is what she needs. Can I
spill a secret? The sun fell in love with the exhilarating maiden Earth was.
The sun decided to become existent
to give the Earth’s offspring light, hope. To give life to Elpis. The sun
decided to exist even if he knows that life would be painful. Even if he knew
that Earth and he will never be together. Because he knows that he can only do
harm to Earth. Even if he knew that Earth is in love with the Sky and his
magnificent robe of flashing stars.
Then again, the Sky is a
philanderer. The Earth knew that the Sky already have a daughter. The Moons.
The Earth and the two of the Moons can never be together, can I spill a secret?
Because the two Moons has overthrown the Earth in the context of beauty. Sky, a
blanket between the three has sworn to ease the tension, because he loves both.
Even so, one of the Moon is jealous of the Earth, because everything that she
ever wanted was given to her. One of the Moon as I know fell in love with the
sun. Even when she knew that the Sun is bound to love the Earth for eternity,
and the least she could do to make him happy was to give light to the earth at
night, until the time comes when they all have to perish into the blackness of
the Sun. Into his anger.
A few years later, the other Moon
died. Reduced into smithereens of seeds and embryo that it has incubated into
her core. Can I spill a secret? Incest as it is, The Sky and her other daughter
had an affair. The seeds and embryos poured into the Earth along with water as
the vandalized Sky wept. And life flourished in Earth. It was, as to what I saw
as the suns reaction, the saddest of his days. He wept and from where the tears
fell, dried black spots formed, where the fire burned the hottest. And that was
how he grafted a son from his own body.
In the Earth, as the salty tears of
the Sky fertilized the land, seeds grew into shoots and into trees, one of
which is the tree of life. In this tree, multiple sacks made with flesh cling
some were made with fleece. It was the product of embryos sucked by the tree’s
roots from under the ground. One day, the trees trunks rotted, its leaves
fallen, all that was left was the strong twigs that held the sacks which were
abnormally healthy. In another day, the tree finally collapsed and gave away.
The sacks plunged into the comfort of the Earth and upon hitting the ground,
the sacks scattered and wriggled. A few of the creatures in it lived, while the
others did not. Two of which are Arga and Rook, humans. While the Earth
rejoiced with the tickling sensation of having little pairs of feet walking on
her, the Sky lamented seeing other creatures without home. He cried and cried
and cried until salty seas were made, until fishes had a place to live in.
While everything happened, the Moon
went unnoticed even when she shot silver beams of moonlight towards her father.
No one noticed that the Moon went blue. She made a vow that every few years she would change color again to remind everyone the sorrow that they brought to her.
And this is when everything came
into being. From love and hate. From security and jealousy. From crying and
crying. From death. And from hope. From Elpis and her womb. From her cornucopia. From Achelous. From everything that made the world that we all live now
harsh, exciting and worth living in. And by the way, my planet was destroyed
because of us, its stewardesses. I hope you won’t destroy yours.
Overcoming Asymptotes
I can only be as close as this. You are the upper y-axis. I am the line of the equation. Love is the slope. We meet in negative 1 but asymptotic at positive 1. I hope the laws of calculus will take mercy of me and give exceptions to overcome this asymptote.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Things That Still Goes On
Disregarding the value of time, nothing really is infinite or everlasting, there are just the things that are still going on. And the things that are meant to go on and on...
Finding the Extraordinary from the Ordinary
What lies behind every ordinary story is an unspoken secret.
What lies behind every ordinary word is the weight of emotions by which it was said or written.
What lies behind every ordinary scene is a schematic planning.
What lies behind every cliche is the history of its first utterment.
What lies behind every fake smile is the burden of being obliged to be happy to mask the sadness.
What lies behind every rotting streetlight is the ages of moisture it has endured and the number of people it gave light to.
What lies beyond is what you'll be most surprise of. Be free to explore. Try new things. So that one day, you'll find the extraordinary from the ordinary.
Poetry: You Left
Leave me alone!
For you have wronged me!
For you lied to me!
For you possessed my each day!
And now your leaving?
Shakepearesque,
You told me:
“I understand the fury in your words,
But not your words.”
A loathsome line in Othello.
How can I know?
What really happened that night?
You left,
Yes you did.
Without understanding
That it was a misunderstanding.
You left me,
Left me hanging
By the hangman’s knot
From the ceiling.
Lest you not know
That the worst thing you did
Was you left me halfway.
Left me still breathing,
Suffering from still living.
You came back,
After a few days back.
But you came late
And now that I have left you
Do you see how it feels?
To be left
Without knowing the true story?
Now that I’m dead,
Do you understand
The words from my tongue
And the fury as well?
A few Shades Darker (the Night Looms)
Is it night yet? Because the light has completely disappeared.
Is it night yet? Can you lead me back to where I came from? Isn't it too late for you to guide me back to safe harbor? Because I thought you'd want me 'til the end.
And now I'm lost. Is it night yet? Because the light has abandoned the sun.
Is it night yet? I doubt it. Because I can still see you, my sun. Only that you are being swallowed by the horizon. Leaving me here alone in the comfort of the stark darkness.
Is it night yet? When will you be back? When it is the final night of my life?
The Legend of a Supernova
Now I know why stars try to burn off their last hydrogen molecules in showing off bright happy colors. For people to notice they're dying. To make a joke of their death and paint a few more happy faces in the blank canvas of human emotion. To leave a legacy after a whole lifetime of burning off for other people. And to remind everyone that not everything starts and ends happily with colors.
The Human Race Naturally Have Dementia
We died a lonely death where no one came and no one visited.
A death where no one even threw a black party.
A death where no one knew we died.
No one will honor our existence or our memories.
We will never be remembered as someone... or even something. Even if we did something great for our kith and kin. For our civilization. For the humanity.
We are as good as something that never really existed.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Silence Is a Seed That Grows To Be a Realization.
"Love, it strikes and despite how ready you are from its blow, you find yourself succumbing to it because you see that love's plans are much better than yours."
~In dedication to 09053294942, who made me realize this phrase. I guess love is the only true fountain of happiness in the world and once you've found it, you'll find that the happiness you are feeling is profound.
Poetry: Titanomachy
Opaque gases descend
Of your flaunting façade.
Choking your pizzazz
With the eirenic
Weapon of mass destruction;
You had an affaire
With Uranus you made tie.
Incest.
Smelling the scent of your hair
The heavens can't get enough.
Sitting on your calm sinew,
Can you feel
The weight of the cosmos
That was supposed to be centered
On Mount Othrys,
On the shoulders of Atlas?
Nyx chasing,
Hypnos casting enchantments,
Uranus move away
The veil you have laid,
Let Helios sneak a glimpse
And witness her placid curve.
Poetry: Chelsea's Grin
Wide but unfelt,
Quiet and unmerry.
Chelsea's smile,
When can you see?
Cold molten clay
Cascading over enamel.
Rotten masterpiece
Six feet underground.
A metronome of nonexistence.
Til' Eros' home in
Stop vibrating.
Under austere
Bricks and Mortar cage.
For everyone
Whom fall asleep
Until the final weight
Is set on the Window,
Please remember Chelsea
Whom smiles pure agony
Of the slit
On her face.
Will you ever see?
No, you will not
For it is your Chelsea's smile
Stark and as white
As Chelsea's painstaking
Grin.
Poetry: A Serpent 'Round the Shrub
Of the Shrub of the Wise
Hath he slept?
Or hath waiteth
For the serpent
Of the sooty Hole?
Adamesque
Hath the receptacle
Really fell?
Or was it a free Pome?
Evesque,
Hath he bit?
What was given
By the Hydra
Of deep frozen Waters.
Upon tasting
Mouth-watering
Flesh from the Clinger
.Hath he turneth wiser?
And now can tell
How thing really fell?
Downward force in motion
Can this be a metaphoric allusion?
Of how our Wrongs
Can drag us Below.
Double Entrendez it is,
A warning to stay in path
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